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i've been thinking about this for the last month or two
"what could've happened if i ended up with you?"
the past we had was blurry..nothing really came so clear
all i know is that there was a time i kept you dear
long letters we wrote each other to explain our sides
and then a few weeks later, i couldn't believe my eyes
by the mirror in the hallway was you with him beside
i asked you what has happened, i wanted to know why.
you said,"the time you was ignoring me, he was there to talk;
he cared when you wouldn't, when you were stiff as rock."
it didn't really matter much to me what happened then
i was pursuing someone else, that girl from the other end
the question that i ask myself is why i didn't want you
the answer i quickly recalled, i didn't need a clue
you and i were miserable then; very unpredictable
two sad and lonely persons make one very difficult couple
i really want to talk to you about these feelings i have
maybe over coffee or tea, a movie, lunch or a drive
people do chan
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things i shouldn't say
things i shouldn't say
i saw you once or twice
you gave me that stare
those hypnotizing eyes
they moved me
i asked my friends 'bout you
and it turned out that
they were your friends, too
they told me
we talked the first time
i didn't say a word
the experience.. sublime
so surreal
then i made my move
and that, so early, too
thought i was in the groove
i wasn't
you caught a hint of it
my motives, i'd hid
it backfired as it hit
my mistake
you questioned why i did
many things you asked
my tongue i almost bit
what the hell
so i told you everything
even more than that
i stuttered in saying
"i'm sorry"
a resolution we must find
between you and i
so she spoke her mind
"don't like you"
took it all upon myself
was the one to blame
being honest was no help
so, i see
now we've decided to be
back where we were once
you unknown to me
in silence.
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innocence lost - dos
a gentle touch
a silent hush
and there. it's begun.
romance.
why didn't i keep my promises?
why did i deny my innocence?

close your eyes
cover your ears
and there. i've felt it.
rush.
why was i so curious?
why did i silence my conscience?

a soft kiss
a slight nudge
and there. i've lost it.
regret.
why did i think that i must?
why did i give in to lust?

i'm way past the border
i've crossed the line
i cannot return
can't bail out this time.
i kept on listening
to the voices within
i thought i was right
did my best to pretend
that the reason i'm here
is because of love and care
but i ended in bed
i was greatly misled.
exchanged my purity
for worthless pleasure
how fickle this human mind
how sometimes unreasonable.
the decisions i make
can be utterly stupid
and the actions i take
are what i wished i avoided.
God, can you help me?
i'm sick of myself
forgive my foolishness
i'm so sorry i fell
why was i so curious?
why did i think that i must?
why
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paulustheonly
pollux the lightbearer
Fiji
Current Residence: Christmas Island
Favourite genre of music: rock, hard screaming rock... headbangers unite!
Favourite photographer: yani.. hahahahaha!!! and vicky, too.
Favourite style of art: unconventional
Operating System: linux..i wish.
MP3 player of choice: kahit ano.
Shell of choice: clam shell.. joke.
Wallpaper of choice: white screen
Skin of choice: crystalXP
Favourite cartoon character: samurai jack
Personal Quote: "s l o w v i b e s...."
Interests
confusion.

a mental state characterized by a lack of clear and orderly thought and behavior;
a state in which a person is bewildered, perplexed, or unable to self-orient.
a state of disordered orientation; a disturbance of consciousness in the sense that awareness of time, place, or person is unclear.

today i uploaded <a href=www.deviantart.com/deviation/1…>just one deviation. one for a friend.

to think that the world is a crappy place to live in is not a crime.
we don't even belong here.
but the time we spend here needn't be a waste.

people don't always understand.
that's what makes us people.
i'm not God, but i can talk to Him.
i can't tell Him what to do, but i can ask Him what He wants to.
i don't know if i can help you.
but i, sure as hell, will try to.

two things:
don't hate. we haven't the luxury to.
don't hesitate. we haven't the time to.

this is for you.

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nuriendil Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2007
Boo. :D
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before-life Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2006
:wave: your stuff has got so much style man i love it !!!
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i-bleed-ink Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2006
asitg haha tagal na toh hinahanap ni wham haha :D
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icebubble Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2006
"matuhgel... kuh neng... guhstungh muhlemen moe"

...got the link from your blog. great stuff in your gallery! :)
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violentlyvicky Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2005
oi paulus!
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ilikegreens Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2005
thank you for all your comments!! :heart:
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paulustheonly Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2005
no prob.. your works are 'comment-worthy' :D
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paulustheonly Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2005
~paulustheonly
pollux the lightbearer
* is a Wise Ass
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* is a deviant since Jan 27, 2005, 6:28 AM
* has 499 pageviews
* is located in Fiji
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yay! one more and i've got 500... haha. coolness,,,
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jek Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2005  Professional Interface Designer
Thanks for adding me :)

Cheers!
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UniPT Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2005  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Welcome to DA-U. :)
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